Growing up in a small Midwest city, we didn't have much. Our shoes and school supplies came from Goodwill. We were fed by school lunch, summer programs, and food stamps. Although we were a broken family, there was love. Even so, I was exposed to violence, drug and alcohol abuse, abandonment, broken promises, and constant uprooting. At a young age, I learned to read the room and adapt to the moment, prepared for whatever came next.
When we were fortunate to stay in one place, we’d make friends. The first time we busted out of our dead-end block on our rusty old off-brand bikes and rode the city's paved trail drastically broadened my worldview! I saw what I could only describe as a waterfall (turned out to be a levee) and so much open space! Being bathed in sunshine, laughter, and friendship showed me real peace. That day I learned what could be if you didn’t always have to be “ready.”
I was too young to sign a lease when I was officially “on my own” and driving missing reverse when I met my first bike. A Columbia Sports Tourist. Steel, teal, and chrome fenders. When my car died, she was my commuter. I would ride around town, pedaling through bank drive-ups and playing “pick up the groceries’ when I realized they had fallen out of my bag. Midwest winters are tough, but so was I. This was different, though. Instead of suffering, I felt capable and independent. Commuting showed me that hard things weren’t all bad. Most of all, it brought back that same peace I found as a child. On the bike, I was finally able to be present. I didn’t have to change to fit the scenario; I was in control.